Im a dead end

I moved to Maryland in January to be with Donte and to start over. And I ruined it. My fresh start has expired and its time to move back and fix what I had to begin with. I want to be myself and be with my friends. I need to go back to school, get my own place, a good job and worry about nothing but rent. I cant list how many things I need to get done, and if I said I would have a problem being a nobody forever, that would cause problems now.

I cant find anyone who just truly understands me. Ive searched in Virginia, and Ive searched in Maryland. Maybe not to the extent of my search back home, but Ive tried. The point is, I need to do something with my life and Im worried I wont be able to do it here.